Hey, Little Fears!
I’ll bring you to tears
I had a Gamer Girl in my life, once.
She respawned and respawned
Until there were none
The call of duty was
quite strong
She followed that call of duty
and now
I am lonely
Little Fears, this New Year’s
Do you hear me?
It’s not edifying, so I do not aspire to it.
Sitting in a Starbucks with you
I’m excited cos I think you’re pretty cool
I think you’re also kinda pretty
And I think on the eyes, im pretty easy, too
I know you see me differently
I know you’re only 20
I behold a baby before me
That’s ok; you’ll have one on me when I’m 40
I have lots of fun
I’m scared you want to run
Your eyes and ways rather disarm me
I’m scared that you’re scared cos you rather charm me
I can only be me, you can only be you
Sitting in this Starbucks, just us 2
I jump, you snap, I am silly
And in the end, we’ll always be family
(I know that I am different
And I can’t help it.
But grandpa’s just up the road
So you won’t get too cold on your walk home)
Will I ever be Jake to you?
Will I always have to fake my ways to be
Seen in a light of splendor
With lowered and deeper voice that goes with having muscle, classical beauty?
Isn’t it enough for me to be
A gay boy in cowboy hat
And we’ll leave it at that?
Will I ever be Jake to you?
Will my chains, this burden, ever break
So that I can be Jake?
Will I ever pop the pills, and take the knife
So I can be greater in your eyes?
Why do I care if I am Jake?
Because I don’t want to be weak in your eyes (but after all, aren’t we all the same?)
I’m afraid to be aged, and never seen in your eyes
But what your eyes can see or not
Is your problem, not mine.
Christmastime is bliss
Christmas comes and is like a kiss
Get on your best, your finest dress
String on the haberdashery
You are now bedecked
Like a fine Christmas tree
Life is lived so joyfully
“So strike up the world
There’s light in the cold
For Christ is born
And is the Lord”
My name is human and I come
From love
I know sometimes you forget but
You don’t mean to hurt me
I’m thinking of all the things you were
I’m thinking of the sights you are
I feel it in my whole being
I see it in your soul still
I really think I’ll be alone
I really do fear I’ll always be alone
I feel it all around me
I see it everywhere I go
And oh to hold you again
Nothing but silence
You smashed everything beautiful with your soul
And all the churches here below
I am fallen to these woods
For at one time, I was in your heart
And you were in mine
And we walked them together
So, I was amidst beauty.
Amidst these woods
I have left a portion of my heart,
Partially not by choice
But in hopes that you would one day
Return again
(As I set out today, I sought out my hiking sticks, only to remind me of the coffee and how we walked).
The City Bard 